Time flies by with a toddler...

...I am not saying that is an excuse for lack of posting, but it sure is one of the reasons;-) Things here have good, really good in fact. Life with Ava is full of adventures and we are truly blessed to be part of that. We are coming up to our third anniversary of having Ava home, and the reality of that has had a variety of mixed emotions. It is no secret that my dream of becoming a mother had its share of heartbreaks and with that, the dream coming true has also had its share of emotions. The sense of contentment along with the feeling of completeness is perfection. Being a mom to this little girl has brought a love and peace in my heart that there are no words for. That being said, there moments that I mourn for the little baby that I carried home in my arms from Guatemala. There are moments that I long for that again. That's normal, I know, but at this point in the journey of our family, another baby is not an option. The reasons for that is, in a word, betrayal. My body has betrayed me, the Guatemalan government has betrayed the orphans of Guatemala and because of those betrayals, this family of three will remain as such. Am I sad about that? Sometimes, yes. Who wouldn't be? Do I let those things take away one second of the pure amazement and delight that I find in Ava? Not a chance! I breathe in every second of this little girl. I will forever do that and I will forever be grateful that she has entered our lives and made us complete.

So when I fail to post and take wayyy too long share an Ava story, please know that it is because I am soaking it all up. Her laughter, her tears, her funny words, her crazy dances and every single one of her million smiles. That's what we have been up to...

P.S. I promise the next post will not by so mushy and nostalgic, but to be honest, as the days get closer to our forever family day anniversary, mushy and nostalgic are a very natural progression;-) So I guess I shouldn't promise at all.